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God Save Us From Ourselves

I was listening to a renowned scholar talking about the aim of marriage, and couldn’t stop myself from trying to find out if everyone or majority of folks share his same views on the purpose of marriage, so:

Do you think that the most important aims of marriage are just ‘Companionship and breeding’?!

If your answer is yes, I think you are depriving and denying yourself from experiencing one of the most beautiful and noble emotions that has ever existed ‘Love’, and you are not doing yourself justice because you have a right to seek love, be loved and give love to your loved one.

I always loved that part of the ‘Christian/Western’ wedding vows when couples say to one another ‘To Love and Cherish!’

Just as my love to God makes me bear whatever tests he puts me through and maintain my faith, loving your other half enables you to stand solid throughout your relationship with them and face everything with them happily and firmly be it (Illness, poverty, challenge, hardship and obstacle.)

A book, cat, dog, gardening, your friends, TV, work or even yourself if you enjoy solitude can provide you with company, it is not a very wise step to marry someone because you are looking for company!

We are not machines or robots to let go of our emotions; the great ones like love, and just to your knowledge they are making now robots that can express emotions and give back love to their owner!

In Islam when describing the relationship between spouses the lord says ‘و جعلنا بينكم مودة و رحمة, meaning (and He has put love and mercy between your (hearts)), I think all religions place so much great emphasis upon love.

I have heard a number of folks especially accomplished men who place a great emphasis when talking about marriage on the ‘Companionship and breeding’ side, and from my perspective I regard this as unfair for those in favour of such notions and their partners.

Lack of love will make us commit many inhumane and uncivilized actions against our partners; can you imagine what unloving spouse can do to their partner if the relationship fails?!

Some who lack the courage and love to inform their partner face to face that the relationship isn’t working anymore can choose to send that via a TWEET!

Let us mend our relationships and perspectives and choose love over anything else every time!

Finally, I don’t know where we are heading to when we subtract love from the equation of life and marriage, may God save us from ourselves!

Tough & Ambitious Vs Balance & Fairness

I always ask people to be ‘TOUGH & AMBITIOUS’ & demand it from myself, I tell myself to be tough & ambitious, but I don’t want to be so tough & ambitious that I lose sight & have so much regrets later in life on any aspects within my life.

Maybe this kind of thinking was inspired to be by many very successful figures that had regrets at later stages of their lives for the way they had led their lives. We`may envied them for what they represented, in our eyes they embodied the peak of human achievement, happiness,success & were making tons of money, that is what we saw from outside, but what was happening inside was very different; they had epic battles taking place.

The biggest regret people have very late at/in their lives has something to do with ‘Human Relationships’; walking away from the love of your life because it wasn’t the right time, being absent from the birth of your child, or during your child’s first soccer game/dance/party/graduation or whatever activity or thing that was very important to them and they needed you there to celebrate their success, but you decided not to show up due to the head ruling you over matters of love. Same goes for not being there for your significant other.

You will discover at your death bed that it was your loved ones who will really make/made all the difference, not all your incredible achievements, successes, wealth, and all those stuff.

Am not saying we should be less ambitious, but try to make a balance, and pray that God gives us insight on what really matters.

In Islam we have a hadith narrated from the prophet (PBUH) that says “You have a duty to your Lord, you have a duty to your body, and you have a duty to your family, so you should give each one its rights.” , so what we need is to make balance, be fair, & give all parties their rights.

Scheherazade ‘I Can’t’, Shahryār ‘I’m Tired…’ Content Warning

In a dark study David kept pacing back and forth while saying to himself…

She’s exploiting the powers she has over him; he was weak when it comes to the husband/wife relationship they shared. She knew all the buttons that led to sexually satisfying him. She was bold, passionate, pretty, wild and sexy, all that and more led him into this decision they are fighting over now. He made her quit her job,  he thought that giving her access to all what he owns will be enough, but she was an ‘Alpha Female’ and simply being married  was not  fully satisfying her, she wanted more, not just him!

This was his fourth marriage, and he thought he had problems with women, after his last divorce he kept himself to his job, he took a vow that he will not embarrass himself again with any other female, he couldn’t tolerate what each woman would be saying behind his back to the whole country, and the gossips moving around; of how he failed in making them feel like real women! His marriages were with zero chemistry, and every encounter with any of his previous wives left him washed in shame, he dreaded making love to them, and he buried himself in his work, he used to arrive in the early morning when they were in deep sleep, he slept few hours, showered, and left to work. This was the best solution he could have come up with!

Until he saw her at a party, she flirted with him so openly, wildly, so passionately, that she frightened him; she showed him that she was interested in him as a man. He was taken back, surprised, disgusted at one point, because as a man he loved being the hunter, doing the hardwork and chasing his prey! Never in his wildest dreams did he dream of a woman doing the opposite; becoming the hunter and chasing him! He was about to let her know that he isn’t interested in the game that she was playing, but then he remembered his failures with his previous wives, he told himself it’s okay to reverse the roles, just as men let women be at the top when coupling and taking the lead, let me taste what it feels like to be hunted and chased!

*****

For three awesome months he had the most passionate love affair of his life with her, she took the reins of their relationship in her hands, and to his amusement he liked it very much. She loved him 100%, didn’t hold anything back, and gave him the taste of things he never knew existed, and he was afraid to lose his new found passion, he proposed to her asking her to leave her job, and just to be his wife and remain at home, he couldn’t stand the idea of her changing her mind about him, losing interest in him and then desiring another man or her being desired by other men.

*****

She wasn’t allowed to engage in any activity outside the house that didn’t involve him, they did everything together, it made him feel safe, he wasn’t going to let another male take away the sense of ‘Manhood’ she gave him.

*****

Then their lovemaking became less passionate, she was holding herself back, and he had a sense that something was wrong. One night after they made love which wasn’t satisfying to him as it used to be, he took her devices and searched her mobile, laptop and all the other devices, he wanted to find an evidence that confirms his suspicions, but he couldn’t find anything, and he thought to himself maybe she is also a very clever cheater, she is after all the woman who made him fall head over heels in her love, and after marriage he became her sex slave who couldn’t live a minute without being inside her!

*****

Few days later he confronted her asking her why she had become so rigid and cold.

‘Did the bird find a new nest?!’ He said to her

She just came out of the shower, she threw the towel on the floor, stood naked in front of him, looking at him with a very strange look in her eyes she took the lotion bottle, she normally lets him do it because he loves it, he loves applying cream to her, and letting his hands and fingers touch and learn her body more, but tonight she seemed like she wasn’t going to let that happen. She began applying the lotion to her neck, then her chest rubbing her hands so slowly until she reached her breasts, she began touching them so softly spreading the lotion  over them, and then squeezed and pinched them the same way he does when loving her, then she held both of her breasts in her hands shaking them,  her hands went to her nipples fingers moving in circles around her hardened tips, she touched her belly,  tights, buttocks and legs in a provocative manner, and when she came to her sex, she massaged it so slowly and lovingly as if it was him who was the one touching her, his face became red, his eyes seemed as if they were about to pop out from their place, she knew he was hard and dying to be inside her, but she kept torturing him by denying him from pleasing himself through pleasuring her, she knew she gave him a taste of what being a man to your woman means. Being desired gave her super powers, and she can see what that meant from his face and the emotions running through his body.

She was still massaging her sex when she said in a very husky and aroused voice ‘I don’t cheat, if we run out of love, I will be out of here. I got myself into your life , and I can also get myself out of your life.’

He came closer to her letting her feel his arousal and need, he was baring himself so that she can see that he needed her painfully and he wasn’t washed in shame or going to hide or deny his need.

She looked at his hard swelling cock that seemed about to erupt begging to free itself from the need tormenting it,  then gazed in his eyes coldly saying ‘Move to the guest room, you will not enjoy having your dick inside me as long as am being treated like one of your house’s furniture!’

He took her hips in his hands making her come in close contact with his erection,  her wet  needy aching pussy was on his hot swelled cock, she pressed her lips together afraid a cry of desire will escape from them, she looked into his eyes, and thought ‘Why not let him and her enjoy one final hard ride?!’, she grasped his arms before riding his erection, she rubbed herself against him, and he kept pumping his cock into her, she held firmly into him saying like she had become a villain ‘You love this, what am doing to you, what you do to me. Well hear me boy I got sad news for you , you are going to spend the next fifty years of your life all by yourself in that cold room if you don’t allow me having what I want.’

He cupped her ass in his hands bringing her closer to his hard cock then rammed into her saying as if he was hurting  ‘I will do anything for you,  just give me your love honey, please let me love you, please love me like you have always been doing!’

She didn’t know how both of them managed to be talking and making love at the same time, he was already inside her and her need frightened her, despite all her talk her cunt betrayed her and was holding him tightly like a hostage, he was deeply buried inside her, and she held to his firm solid arms to protect her from falling, he was now sitting on the bed taking her with him, she straddled him, hips moving  and rotating around him, he began moving in and out of her, sensing that she was about to come he then thrust hard into her, she came and few moments later he too came inside her, they kept holding each other, still joined she looked into his eyes, she saw herself  mirrored in his eyes, the love, need, pain, hurt, misunderstanding , desire, and fire that always burned the two of them, everything was there, he was her man and she was his woman, it made her feel strong and weak at the same time. She let him remain inside her taking all of his semen into her body, he knew what she was doing, he let her milk every drop that was still remaining inside his cock, taking her face in his hands he gave her a very long passionate and hard kiss, he was afraid that his love, desire and need will leave her bruised, but he didn’t stop and they kept kissing and making love like it is the last thing they need to do before the big dispute that was threatening to tear them apart.

‘Am taking that job I told you about, am not going to waste my life waiting to be fucked by you at the end of every day after you are done conquering the world.’ She yelled at him angrily.

To keep her quite he took her breast in his mouth and began sucking it hard, despite all her efforts her womb went on a wild trip and she began to moan, squeeze him hard and scream, between touching her, loving her, moving in and out of her, he managed to say in a very hoarse and shaky voice ‘You agreed to quit your job before we even got married, we made a deal!’

She took his head in her hand towards her other breast, and he gave it the same attention and love that he gave to its twin and began sucking it hard, she closed her eyes enjoying the sensation and then said in a very aroused voice that seemed strange even to her own ears ‘I thought it will be easy, but it’s not, I want to explore the world, grow and try new things.’ Then added ‘Do you remember always telling me I had potential?! What did that mean?! Did you really mean it?! Or did you mean a potential to fuck you well like no other woman has ever done?! What did you mean David when you said you see potential in me, what  kind of potential?! Did you mean ‘Being your WHORE HIDING BEHIND A WIFE TITLE?’ She said to him pulling herself from his embrace, and liberating her pussy from being daily fucked by him, she wasn’t going to deny that she enjoyed and loved every minute of it, but she wants more. He looked at her breasts,  his saliva still covering it, a prove that he was loving them minutes ago , and then to her cunt that loved his cock like no other woman did and will ever do.

He never knew he was very vulnerable or fragile before her, he liked what he saw, everything about her, what she did to him, how she pleased him, how he pleased her, what they did together, he lost himself in her, he was aware of her strength, he knew what she was capable of doing to any man by just gazing at them, they can become like rings in her fingers if she wants, and he wasn’t going to take that risk of letting her go out  explore whatever she plans to explore,  and spend all day with other men.

‘Look am not going to fall for another man, and am not going to make other men fall for me, am not a single girl anymore, am your wife, am married, I respect that , and am not some damn hooker!’

‘No work Sarah, it’s final!’ and with that he left and wondered how could it be possible that they had been loving each other madly one minute, then fighting like enemies the other minute!

*****

She slept in her bed, she loved him, she knew she couldn’t stay angry with him for so long, she too was weak when it comes to him, but she can’t afford showing and exposing her vulnerability, she said to herself ‘In love and war everything is fair’, and she was both in love and at war in the same time, she will do whatever she was capable of doing till she gets what she wants!

*****

For the following weeks she avoided him, then suddenly there was some sweet talk between them with no touch, then out of the blue when he came in close contact with her at the kitchen, stairs or elsewhere she allowed him to touch her without having her, and it was driving him crazy! Then as she was giving him his keys he leaned forward her testing if she will allow him to kiss her, and to his surprise she did , she let him kiss her, and he was eating her, she wrapped her legs around him and he firmed her to the wall while tearing her mouth and breasts with kisses, when his mouth closed over her nipples she screamed with joy encouraging him to go on, when he took her mouth again she was returning his kiss in an equal passion as if also breaking up with him did make her weary, if not for that maid he would have taken her while holding her against the wall.

*****

David was unable to concentrate on his work, everything seemed to be hard those past weeks, but they became harder when she allowed him to touch her again, and innocently he took the bait!  He was famished for her. He fooled himself into believing that kissing her will ease the burn inside him, but the smolder turned into blaze, and only having all of her will put that to rest. At home and work he was like a volcano that was on the verge of erupting, he avoided people at work afraid of them having a view of him walking around with a hard cock and a horrible stinky temperament all day due to him not having sex with his woman!  Her plan to kill him softly was working like hell, and if he doesn’t do something it’s going to kill him!

*****

She was having hard time seeing him in pain, she thought she can tolerate it, and he seemed liked he’s in a fight; exerting self restraint over himself because of her. She knew he loved her, and he loved what they did together in bed; she knew he can restrict himself from doing many things except from making love with her.

*****

She was drinking some juice in the kitchen, when he came home early than usual, went to the swimming pool, he stripped himself naked around the pool throwing everything that was in his hands carelessly beside the pool and began swimming, the maid took the rest of the day off, and it was just the two of them, he came into the kitchen naked, opened the fridge took juice and began drinking it in front of her, he let her break up did to him, she swept her eyes over his body and her gaze lingered on his shaft, it was bigger, thicker and harder than usual, she looked at his eyes, it was a mistake, she shouldn’t have done that, his hunger and need was killing him as it was killing her, she began to become wet from her arousal and need, she looked again at him when he said ‘Sarah’ his eyes were dark, face painfully red, and she saw a silent plea there ‘Let me take you’, she brought her shaking hand to her throat and screamed saying ‘No’, then ran to her room, moments later she heard the study door being slammed, for hours he locked himself in the study, not even bothering to have food.

*****

She was questioning herself for how long more can the two of them stay in this way?! Should she give up on her ambitions because she couldn’t stand watching him being in pain?!  He had everything including her, and he couldn’t give her this one thing and let her fulfil her desire to work!

She felt like she was ‘Scheherazade’ and what is keeping her alive and in marriage with him is ‘Her unique ability to satisfy him in bed’. Scheherazade saved her head by narrating stories, and she was kept with him because of ‘Sex’, every woman must possess a unique ability in order to survive among men!   He’s another ‘Shahryār’ and she’s another ‘Scheherazade’, only different time and different location.

She began crying and then said to herself ‘Oh! Foolish women they don’t ask or require anything from men in order to live among women! They only ask them to just be themselves and love to them!’

‘If am here for sex, then he’s not going to have a taste of it again with me ever again till I have what I want.’ She said to herself and then because of being exhausted drifted away into sleep

*****

She was lying in her bed naked after taking a hot shower, she wondered when would be the best time to tell him of what she had found out awhile ago,  when he finds out what she has to tell him will that make him change his mind? Will he let her take that job? She heard his voice outside of her room, she asked him to come in, she was facing the door, her legs were parted, she raised herself on her elbows, her hair fall behind her back and onto the bed, she made him see all of her, he kept walking until he was towered above her, he gaze swept her lingering on her breasts and then resting his gaze on her cunt, it was her turn to let him has a view of her wet, horny and naked! His voice shaking he said ‘Take the job Sarah, if that is what it will take to have you again in my arms, I’m sick and tired, please baby make me feel how being your man tastes like.’

She laid back opened her arms to him, and he slid into her waiting arms, she took his earlobe in her mouth before touching his erection and moving to unzip his trousers saying ‘I can’t live another day without you, I love being your woman, what you make me feel, I love what am capable of arousing in you, I love you and I was planning to end this.’ She had already freed his cock, and was gently touching him before guiding him into her, she gazed into his eyes and he saw tears, love, longing and something else, he kept looking into her eyes before pushing himself fiercely inside her, she cried happily and kissed him with hunger that left him breathless saying ‘Easy honey, be careful am with your baby!’

Gazing into her eyes his face smiling, he kissed her lips then her palm, before moving his hand to touch her belly ‘So we will be having another sexy stubborn Sarah in the house?!’ tears in her eyes she brought her hand above his hand that was pressing into her belly ‘I want a kind, strong, loving and handsome boy who grows up to be a mini copy of my man’ and then took his mouth once more in another hungry kiss.

He loved her all night long taking care of her and the new life growing inside her.

When ‘Cock’ met ‘Cunt’!

There’s no depth in many of the relationships taking place around us anymore, commitment and having a meaningful relationship are off the table. How hot a couple might be feeling towards each other is linked temporarily to that moment they are in; when both of are in the state of being ‘HORNY’, and that particular moment when both of them are ‘AROUSED’ beyond control and the mind seems foggy and the one remedy and solution is to F***! No wonder that some marriages now last about two, three months & sometimes less than that! There were no solid foundations those relationships were built on, other than that burning desire,  no one knows why they had chosen their partner!

It’s just a mating and an intercourse taking place between a ‘COCK’ & a ‘CUNT’,  and when they are done, and their hunger has subsided they see no reason to prolong the relationship or take it to another level. It’s not a relationship that is meant to be a ‘FOREVER’.

After both had went their separate ways what if that cock and cunt are feeling starved once again and hunger is eating them alive?! What happens then?! I don’t know, but maybe they will repeat the cycle with other cocks and cunts, and they will be living in that cycle where long term relationships, commitment, family, love and marriage becomes of less importance and everyone is hooked on getting between/under sheets and to just do it!

Alive ‘Content Warning’

 

Nancy was sitting at the kitchen table sipping her coffee and reading an article about how to spice one’s sex live in the magazine, and she was surprised at the weirdness of the tips, the sexy lingerie’s they wore, it barely covered anything, of how the female models positioned themselves with the men in the photos, it left no room for the imagination and it looked as if they were having a real intercourse with one another except that they weren’t actually doing it, she asked herself if  she ever after 20 something years of marriage can get doing this feeling comfortable with her husband?!

The magazine and the photos made her insides melt, she then put it aside and continued enjoying her coffee, then said to herself ‘Matt wouldn’t want me to be that sexy for him,  see me in outfit that exposed all my feminine parts, he prefers to be lewd with his whores!’

Suddenly her twin children appeared; Daniele & Isabella, she thanked God for having them in her life, if not for them she wouldn’t had stayed married to Matt for a day longer.

Each dropped a kiss on one of her cheeks, and she held their faces close to hers returned the kiss and ran her nose across their face smelling them like she did when they were babies; they had the most adorable scent now and back then.

‘I don’t think you have university today, where are going to?’She asked them

The two spoke spontaneously like they always do ‘We were invited by some friends ‘The Hamilton’s’, and we will spend the day in their new yacht.’

‘Oh! The papa is bragging and showing off! I wonder what sort of criminal act did he engage in to land such huge money?!’

They laughed and then Isabella mentioned to her mom that he works in diversified businesses and makes investments in many ventures.

‘Unlike your papa, when it comes to ‘The Field of Law’ he is a devoted monk!’

They took their sandwiches with them and went on their way.

‘Drive safely, and no irresponsible acts or behaviours.’

‘Yeah, mom, we know!’ Said

She got up and went upstairs, to her kids room first, the cleaner will tidy their rooms but she loves tidying them anyway, she picked some books on her daughters bed, then returned the books to the shelve, opened the window, and went out to her son’s room, his room was like a circus when he was a kid and even now, she picked his socks, shoes, pants, shirts, tidied his bed, picked his laptop & guitar from the floor, and then opened the windows, and went off to her room.

Once she was at her bedroom’s door her chest became tight and her heart dropped, her hands on the door knob, she paused for awhile, before opening the door forcefully, this is the one room that she doesn’t like tidying or staying in!

She sat on one of the chairs, and stared at the bed remembering what happened four nights before. Matt was out and he arrived home very late, she didn’t notice that he came in, only felt his hands parting her legs, before he thrust himself into her body, he kept sliding in and out of her as if he was getting rid of something, and few minutes later it all  finished, he stood by the bed side took his cloth off, and slept beside her naked, then her body started shaking, she was having orgasms, she touched his shoulder but he had already went into deep sleep, her body then became feverish, she got up, went to the bathroom and took a shower, when she came back her husband’s mobile was thrown on the floor, she picked it up, and then suddenly a text message appeared, it was from someone called ‘Horny’ and it said ‘Don’t tell me you wasted that precious erection again on her?!’  Her face blushed,  she felt humiliated and raged, then she kept reading the texts,  the earlier one said ‘Am turned on and you know how bad that is for me when you aren’t around, please come now I need you’, then she understood why her husband was so horny awhile ago that he didn’t mind ‘Fucking her while being asleep.’, she kept reading the messages, then after she finished, went again to the bathroom and began vomiting, she was sick, shaking and angry, then her head and heart started to ache, ten years of cheating and she keeps living in hell, she started sobbing  until the morning. There were extreme knocks and kicking at the door and she felt she is in a dream, she woke up and found herself sleeping on the bathroom floor, so he didn’t even bother to check on her, and here he was preparing himself for his sluts and work.

She picked herself up, washed her face, and opened the door, he bent forward to drop a kiss, she avoided him saying ‘I was sick last night.’

She sat in the study until he left, at noon she heard a voice and she went out to see who it was , standing at the door was the most beautiful male she had ever seen, tall, blonde, wide shoulders, a well built body, long muscled legs and  a narrow waist, he was a work of art, he smiled , and then looked intensely at her, it was as if he liked what he saw, she felt  like ‘Shit’, and there she was being lustfully stared at by a young man, she wondered what did he see in her that didn’t catch Matt’s attention?!

Nancy looked down at herself, she completely had forgotten that she is wearing her night gown, her breasts were exposed, the gown was short, very transparent, and she wasn’t wearing anything else underneath it.

Embarrassed she shut the study door, heart beating and barely able to breathe, she kept her back to the door, he talked to the maid, and then the door was closed.

Nancy moved to the window held the curtain to one side,  and  looked at him as he was leaving, as if he sensed someone was staring at him, he looked back and waved his hand at her!

*****

For the last ten years of her marriage Matt kept cheating on her, they argued and fought, separated for awhile, and even were on the verge of divorce, he then promised her that he will not cheat on her again, and he will be a faithful and loving husband. But it only got worse, and the more richer and powerful he got, the more perverted he became.

The love in their marriage ended, and there was no more sex either, and Nancy was glad, she couldn’t bear him touching her or being inside her body. She stayed in the marriage for her twins; she was going to protect them no matter what even if it meant staying with a cheating husband she doesn’t love or desire anymore.

*****

‘Am Patrick!’  A voice said from above her shoulder

She knew who that voice belonged to, she removed the hat from over her face, she was wearing a bikini by the pool side, it was as if she is destined to meet him whenever she is having minimum cloth on!

She doesn’t know how long had he stood there watching her, and didn’t bother to cover herself. She looked at him wondered if she would feel again the same way she did the other day.

‘How can I help you?!’ She asked.

‘Am looking for Mr. Matt, they need him at the firm, and when they couldn’t be reach him on his phone, I was sent.’

So he is spending the day with his slut who loves his erections. Her gaze moved from Patrick’s shoes to his legs, then she saw a bulge at the front of his trousers, just like she didn’t bother to cover herself he stood right in front of her not ashamed of his arousal.

She stood up walking away towards the house and said to him in aloud angry tone ‘Well you are wasting your time here, he isn’t around.’

She wanted to shout back at him and say ‘You will find him with his sluts.’

But then she turned around and found him staring at her bottom, her cheeks blushing she said to him ‘Am not his secretary!’

*****

For the following days she kept seeing Patrick every, and then saw him again while she was spending her day with her friends, he was sitting in the cafe opposite to her, she was wearing a very revealing summer dress, after he came into her life she threw all her wardrobe away and bought sexy and more feminine wardrobe, she went to where he was sitting and confronted him saying ‘Are you following me?!’

‘Yes.’ Said Patrick

He threw her off balance, she was counting on him denying and then arguing with him, not to be so blatant.

‘Why?’

‘You deserve a better man!’

‘Stay out of my way, is this how you make your living, chasing women whom their husband’s are having a mid life crisis!’

‘Some people need to be saved from themselves Nancy, and am here to do that for you!’

She shook her head and left him.

*****

She kept seeing more of him for the next months and she avoided him completely, then her daughter made remarks about him, she told her to stay away from him and concentrate on her life.

‘Do you think he is bad?! Bad men are sexy mom!’

‘Bella watch your mouth!’

She confronted her husband with the text messages she saw, that he broke his oath not cheating on her, and he didn’t deny, he told her it comes with the changes in his life. Then told her that he will not beg her again to forgive him and she can do whatever she wants.

*****

She found a job with the help of her friends and moved out of the house, she was always good with numbers, it was a job in a big accounting firm, and she enrolled herself at the university.

One night as she was having dinner with her best friend she told her that she wanted to do something thrilling, her friend recommended a ‘Dancing Class’ for her,  and told her that maybe she will meet the man of her life while learning new moves and burning calories!

She registered herself at a night class and thought of bringing her kids, but they told her they already had plans but will come to see her, at the class the teacher told them to pair up, she was the only one left without a partner, her Spanish dancing teacher came to her aid saying ‘ We can dance together!’

Then she heard the voice that had never left her for months now ‘No need, I don’t have a partner too, so we can team up!’

Once in his arms she was tense for the first few minutes, then later on her body relaxed and let him guide her, they kept moving together, she was unaware of everything except this man who made her feel so ‘Alive’ since the first day they had met.

Later at night she let him accompany her back to home, while walking they talked, he told her that he is an orphan, he doesn’t know his father, his mother committed suicide after some of her lovers whom were drug dealers hooked her on drugs and turned her into a prostitute.

‘I guess she couldn’t stand being used by the men she has loved starting from my dad, then later on her lovers who were concealing their true identity and occupation, hooking her up on drugs, then after they got bored with her, and she become of no value to them introduced her to prostitution, she couldn’t take what they did to her and what she had become, so she then decided to end her story her way.’

‘Each day I keep asking myself why had she given up on herself and me? Why didn’t she fight back?!’

Suddenly she came into a halt, opened her arms and hugged him tightly, he was sobbing openly, and she held him tight in her arms, he needed someone to reassure him that they are there for him, and that he won’t be let down just like what happened to his mom, they stood like this for awhile.

‘Sometimes when we are panicked, with not so many options, and in dangerous situations, the mind gives us only two options ‘Fight/Flight’, some are very vulnerable,  alone, scared, they chose not to fight, they chose the exit door, they want to run away from pain, and put an end to their misery.’ Nancy said to him

They finally arrived to her building, she invited him, and he seemed reliefed that she did, she played music, they cooked together, while dancing when they found a chance and sang happily , they seemed like lifelong friends, they set the table at the balcony, the sight was breathtaking, and she had grown various plants and roses, the balcony had become one amazing garden.

They talked about everything, politics, music, movies, their likes and dislikes, they even danced again together, at the very first hours of the morning he left her after placing a kiss inside her palm.

At work she kept and held that hand he kissed all day next to her heart during, their evenings now ended with him walking with her to home, them cooking together, eating together, chatting, dancing, listening to music, reading books, watching movies, and enjoying being with each other.

*****

After her divorce he proposed to her, he left working at Matt’s firm, he now gives various coaching lessons on life, dancing and many other things, she hesitated at first because of the age difference, but he convinced her that it doesn’t mean anything for him.

‘Am fifty, won’t you want children?!’

‘Am in my thirties and strong like a bull, am sure we will make babies together.’

‘Stop joking, am serious!’ She said

He looked at her and said ‘All men aren’t like Matt, am not Matt, I won’t cheat on you, and I will always love you.’

*****

They married, and her children and friends were there, she was very happy and she knew she had found the love of her life.

*****

At their room in the hotel she stood in front of him naked, she wanted to see his reaction towards a woman that is fifty, a belly that had carried babies, breasts that had gone into motherhood, and body that isn’t as young as his.

He ran his eyes over her entire body lingering his gaze on her most feminine and womanly parts, his hands and lips stroked and loved her, and with his passion he showed her how much he was crazy about her.

His voice was hoarse as he said ‘I made an oath that I will never be with a woman except with the bond of marriage, and that I will not do to any woman what some men did to my mother. I have saved myself for the right woman, and you are the right woman.’

Then they kissed and touched each other feverishly and hungrily, his erection pressing into her aching center, and their tongues going into a tango dance.

 

 

 

Female Arousal

Arousal in general can be due to a stimuli be it mental or physical, & the internal variation of hormones. Sexual arousal has many stages.

 

What may make men aroused differs from what makes women aroused, from my readings many studies had been done in labs to find out what turns on each sex, some studies had shown that heterosexual men were turned on from merely watching sexual activity going on between (a man & a woman), on the other hand one study states that some women were turned on from watching sexually activity taking place between (women & animals), but the study didn’t exactly specify or state what was the sexual preference for those women.

 

I also came across another expert that mentions the following ‘Physical arousal isn’t a proof that a woman is turned on & that in order to get a woman hot & bothered, you have to start from top.

 

So what makes a woman turned on? This varies from one woman to another; it’s unique for each one, more like how each individual has their own finger print, preferences, & also sexual experience. It’s also important & worth mentioning that women do vary in the amount of time needed in order for them to be fully aroused, this can range from 20 to 45 minutes.

 

 

There’s one key hormone which plays an important factor in female sexual drive although it might be thought of as a man hormone (TESTOSTERONE), this is a very important hormone for female sexual drive & also for arousal (It’s said that there’re still studies taking place to determine the importance of the hormone for female sexual drive), & as women grow older their bodies produce half the amounts that it used to produce when they were younger. Absence of or low amounts of testosterone in women is said to lead to low sex drive according to some studies.

 

According to one Relationship Counsellor and Sex Therapist there’re four types of female arousal:

  • The Sensual Type
  • The Cognitive Type
  • The Intimacy Type
  • The Attractor Type

 

Females can also suffer from various forms of arousal disorders.

 

Reference:

  1. http://www.huffingtonpost.com/petra-zebroff/sexual-arousal-types-what-is-yours_b_1945808.html
  2. http://www.healthywomen.org/content/article/hormones-desire?page=2
  3. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sexual_arousal
  4. https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/love-sex-and-babies/201105/why-do-women-get-physically-aroused-and-not-even-know-it